I Totally Suck

And once N is 6 months old (how old he needs to be for swim lessons also) I can take him to the gym and put him in the daycare area. So I have 2.5 more months until that happens. I need to lose some of this fat. I feel disgusting. And I really need to work on eating better. I've been bad lately. [:(] I tried to be good, I really, really did. But it only lasted a few hours. I totally suck. [:p]

(it's near turkey day, just be thankful for N)